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"When every breath leads to murder​.​.​.​"

by 99 dOLLAR dIVORCE

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Instrumental
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!!!!!! 00:27
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Will we burn for asking all these questions Because we need You to be much more than a name in a book or a slogan on our cash this rash is spreading and it burns so bad that we can't sleep anymore the pain just won't subside by following a man in a suit and tie This silence is so loud it's making us numb we have accepted this tyranny for far too long we've wasted all of our years on petty fears barely alive take up your crosses the church will be reborn tonight The children are begging in the streets screaming and terrified of the christ they've seen a christ that turns his back on empty stomachs turns his back on the troubled mind a christ that fights for the rights of the unborn but turns his back on the dying Something's contradicting here are you a God of freedom or a God of fear? I see two men on the cross a god of war and the lamb of my salvation Walk into the streets and strip yourself down to the bone let the rain fall down and wash away all the lies you have known lay naked in the grass this is your church your sanctuary the God of life is crying "Live your life in peace"
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Burn! 03:45
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Keep your finger on the trigger Keep your thumb on the little man Entertain myself until I die (it keeps me breathing) 40 hours a week to live a lie Raise your hands if you're suicidal Keep your finger on the trigger Keep your thumb on the little man Anything to sit on my ass all day Anything to make everyone just go away GO AWAY GO AWAY!!! Raise your hands if you're suicidal I'm not part of humanity I'm not part of society Don't give a damn about anything I'm an upstanding citizen of planet me an upstanding citizen of planet me
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No one can touch me here no one can see or hear me staring in the eyes of my true self Do I hate what I see Is this bitterness or vanity Have I ever looked so close at all the things that make me me
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We're waiting and watching the skies for any movement up there It's been so long since we believed in anything We believe in the liquor in our veins The cuts in our skin We believe in pain We'd love to touch the face of God But right now we'd settle for the hem of his robes Show us something more than just this selfish life Breathe into our lungs Make us feel again Our religion is skin deep Sitting in the church pews Sunday after Sunday Reduced to cheap cliches and posters on the wall Give me something more than this Make us feel again (Come to me all who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest)
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The Healing 03:08
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Sin 07:22
You woke the same today as you always do You know what you believe and you should follow through Running away from who you are Running away from all you could be And all the money in this whole world won't save you from yourself All the pride in this whole world won't save you from yourself Tear it down (come on and be who you are) Reach across to the mirror and touch your hand Look yourself in the eye, see how you stand "I am less than me I am less than I was created to be" And all the money in this whole world won't save you from yourself All the pride in this whole world won't save you from yourself Tear it down (come on and be who you are)

about

This is a collection of rock/industrial/electronic songs I wrote under the name 99dOLLARdIVORCE about 8 years ago. They're thick with sound and meaning... I was going through some pretty hard times, searching for God and his church when I wrote them. Here's what I wrote about it back then... in 2004.

"When every breath leads to murder...

Nearly a year ago I read this phrase in the opening paragraphs of The Rebel by Albert Camus. I had been working on a different project at the time, but the phrase haunted me and stayed with me. The phrase refers to interconnectedness, the fact that everything we say and do, every action, is a catalyst for life or death. I applied this to my spiritual journey. The struggles that I have wrestled with over and over in the past 5 years of my life; the death of both parents, loss of deep friendships, being homeless, getting married, becoming a father. A lot has been going on in my life as of late."

The reality is that this album is my testimony. Some of those close to me may take objection to this music... but the truth is, every song of these 15
tracks (12 plus 3 bonus) was a prayer: a desperate cry for help. I couldn't function at the time... I was a mess.

God answered every single one of these prayers. Each song was a plea to God for something more than the pathetic lives that we lead... that I was leading, and literally every single query of God has been answered in full.

I love my life. I don't look back.

Some of these songs I do find pretty fun to crank up. I was pretty angry and desperate when I wrote these.

If you find solace in them, please take a listen to some of my other music and take a look at my blog. I'd love to show you what God's given me.

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released October 26, 2004

John Robert Cullimore

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The Longing Selmer, Tennessee

The Longing is music by John and Yvonne Cullimore.

We seek to bring music that will connect with you both in sound and poetry, melding loops and beats with hammered dulcimer, 12-string guitar and layers of vocals and harmonies.

More importantly is that we enjoy our music, and can use them for worship and prayer. We certainly do hope and pray that you can do the same.
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